Side Sermons from God

Once again while my Pastor was preaching God was giving me a side sermon. Our Pastor had read Psalm 119:9-16. My mind stopped at verse 10. As I read that verse, over & over, I started thinking about it. The verse, in NKJV, reads, "With my whole heart I have sought You."

As I thought about this verse, I had to ask my self when was the last time I sought the Lord with my whole heart. I know I read my Bible and pray. I am a "good" Christian. However, I have to ask myself was it the Lord that I sought after with my whole heart or was it the things that he could do for me or give me. You know, things like health, wealth and all the blessings we know that God is able to give. How long has it been that I have just sought God just to be with him. I have to answer it has been awhile.

Another verse that made me stop and think was not included in my Pastor's passage, but just down a few verses. It is verse 20. "My soul breaks with longing for Your judgements at all times." There have been some things I've been praying about and I have been seeking God's will on them, however, I must admit I have also been letting God know that I could advise Him on how He could accomplish it in a way that would make me happy. Do I really long for his judgement in these things. His judgement is always best. We all know that right? So why do we tend to pray for something and then proceed to tell God what the best way to answer is? Do I really want His will or do I just want to be able to say, "Well, I prayed for God's will, so this must be it."? Praying for God's will (judgement) in a matter has to be without strings. Either we truly want God's will or we truly want our will. Believe it or not, God does not need our help in figuring out His will for our lives. He has a plan and we need to realize that His way is always better than our way. Easy? No, but as we grow in Him it gets easier to truly say "Your will, not mine be done."